Friday, May 05, 2006
Ya know just when you think it's safe to go back in the water! *LOL* Soo it's been a very quiet week - haven't really heard much from E all week which is lovely.. This morning I had the boys call E cause you know if I didn't he would be calling me complaining they don't call and he's making other plans for the weekend... Well that just opened up the flood gates for him to call me.. 4 times already today - acting way tooo sweet and apologetic the first time, then calling about something else but still nice, then calling to ask a question acting like he hadn't talked to boys this morning and then AGAIN rambling about something else and complaining he couldn't sleep - this is my problem HOW??? Here I was thinking we hadn't heard from him cause maybe - hope against hopes - he got some sucker skank ho friend to keep him occupied and free me... APPARENTLY no such luck... *sigh*
Along that line of thought - I realized at the Titanic Ball the other day - I have no real friends - I don't really know any of the other parents of the boys classmates and I feel like an outsider... I don't have any girlfriends I can call and chat with or go hang out with - I don't know any one with kids same/similar ages that I feel welcomed by enough for regular playdates... Basically I feel VERY lonely somedays... I mean I LOVE my boys - I LOVE doing for and with them but I want to have friends too - I want to go places and do things with ADULTS once in a while... Ehhh I guess I'll eventually have a life as the boys get older and this too shall pass but some nights it's hard to forget/accept what I DON"T have...
Work is getting busy and I am trying to be involved in more things - the more on my resume the better... Plus I like being a team player... Soo I better get back to the research - til next time...
Along that line of thought - I realized at the Titanic Ball the other day - I have no real friends - I don't really know any of the other parents of the boys classmates and I feel like an outsider... I don't have any girlfriends I can call and chat with or go hang out with - I don't know any one with kids same/similar ages that I feel welcomed by enough for regular playdates... Basically I feel VERY lonely somedays... I mean I LOVE my boys - I LOVE doing for and with them but I want to have friends too - I want to go places and do things with ADULTS once in a while... Ehhh I guess I'll eventually have a life as the boys get older and this too shall pass but some nights it's hard to forget/accept what I DON"T have...
Work is getting busy and I am trying to be involved in more things - the more on my resume the better... Plus I like being a team player... Soo I better get back to the research - til next time...
